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I hate my life.
I know I really shouldn't be saying that. After all, I am obviously extremely lucky, very privileged, I should be so grateful etc. etc. I've heard it all. There's nothing they haven't told me yet that's supposed to make me humble and to be honest, none of it has worked. I suppose not everything in my new, and apparently improved life, is bad. I'd be lying if I told you that I didn't enjoy the feel of the luxurious satins and silks that brushed against my skin as I walked, or the looks of mixed respect and fear that were thrown my way as I walked down the streets, the beautifully crafted weapons that could be mailed to me within twenty four hours. All were wonderful perks, but what I liked the most was the strange warm sensation that burned through my body as I opened the apartment door and saw his silhouette against the wall, waiting for me. That was the best.
IowaIf you visit Iowa,
you'll call her fields empty,
but she wasn't born that way.
A part of her was carved out
when she was ripped between Virginia
and the purple mountains of New Mexico.
Her gold hair, she tore it out when she realized
it didn't make her a princess.
She laid her locks strung along every road
leading somewhere else.
White hairs on her cheeks
are scars from winter.
Her hair darkens with the dampness
of summer rains.
The storms are never silent,
but neither is life when there's a tear
in your childhood where
a parent ought to be.
I've been flooded by Iowa's sorrow.
The only way I can distract her from her own voided landscape
is if I hate myself harder than she cries.
She just wants to fly
and I want to bus or train,
not because I fear death, but because
I want to take living slow.
It's the only way I ever feel.
From the air it's hard to watch Earth's hips move.
But Earth can't compare to the country.
That's my girl.
Full grown even when harvesting season's j
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